KEEP IN THE SUNLIGHT

I have to say, I am proud of myself. I don’t know if it is the simplicity of my classes, the people I am around, or truly a change within myself, but I am doing really well at letting my life flow by without worrying or planning too extensively. As I have mentioned before, I am an avid planner and a huge worrier… neither of which seems to help much. So this year, I have taken it upon myself to abandon this aspect of my personality and try to just be. I am just letting things work themselves out because I know, and have actually always known, that life pulls itself together when I have faith. This weekend in Munich is an amazing example of how worrying is unnecessary. I did not allow myself to feel stressed about the trip even though lots of things could have gone wrong—- We were two girls alone in Germany speaking NO German, knowing nothing about the public transportation system, with no experience with Oktoberfest or Germany in general, having no idea where the hotel was and couldn’t have known less about what exactly we’d be doing all weekend. THINGS COULD NOT HAVE RUN MORE SMOOTHLY. It truly gave me confidence in my ability to navigate, use common sense, and travel on my own… I need to constantly be in this mindset. worrying is the biggest cause of failure and disaster. positive energy truly causes positive outcomes. my mother would be so proud of me, she is the queen of not worrying. But it is so true! the things I would have worried about were totally trivial and unimportant when it came down to it. If anything were to go wrong, I had a phone, enough cash, and an emergency credit card. I was secure. no reason to stress.

In addition, I was worried about my two in class essays this week.. and they turned out JUST FINE. I need to apply this to school so much because my test anxiety has been so bad in the past. I have the abilities to succeed, and I do not need to worry about tests because they are truly CONQUERABLE. I am believing this so much more as this year becomes evidence that situations truly work out in the end.

I was worried about food and eating healthily enough and not eating at restaurants too often— and look what I found! Two friends that have similar concerns and we can support each other and are on the same page with our eating habits.

I was worried about spending too much money and being around people that didn’t feel guilty like I do when using parent’s money.. and THEY CARE AS MUCH AS I DO.

I was worried about having friends that have similar interests and goals and travel destinations, and I couldn’t have found better ones!

I was worried about roommates, and it worked out wonderfully! better than if I had been in a two person room.

I was worried about being away from David and us never talking.. but we talk often and are friends!

All of these things are truly amazing! I must remember to stay in the mindset of keeping in the sunlight— remembering to see the good, be optimistic, be healthy, live freely, and most of all realize that the sun comes up every morning without failing and darkness does not last forever.